He couldn't care less whether or not I leave. In fact, I'm sure he's hoping I will so that he feels like I'm the one that left him and there is no guilt associated with him. He is emotionally and verbally abusive and very controlling. We did marriage counseling, but I couldn't be honest there because he didn't want his self medicating to come up and that's a huge problem. What just astounds me is that he really thinks I'm the one causing all the problems. He hides behind his bipolar and says get used to it, I'm bipolar.