And I phrase it this way because though I don’t think I’ll actively kill myself, I don’t have the guts for that, I do have selfdestructive tendencies (cutting, not eating enough) and I fear that if something happens, if I’m crossing a road and a car is heading for me I might not get out of the way.
I know that I will be leaving behind my friends and family and it’ll be terrible for them, but it just seems so tempting when I’m standing on the side of the road, or on a high bridge to just let go and finally have some peace in my head.
