I slept with my ex’s best friend. And don’t know what to do.
My ex jeff from 4 years ago which wasn’t serious since I was so young. Well I’ve always been attracted to his best friend greg but was never going to act on it because that’s horrible. Well now I’m older and me my ex started rehashing things but km not taking him seriously since my recent ex mike is still on my mind. I honestly just sleep witjt the kid and I like how we connect and how its not serious. Well last might I went out with Greg and some other friends and got pretty messed up, and I ended up having sex with him. I immediately felt horrible. Greg isn’t really taking as serious from what I spoke with him about. But the fact now I’m considered a jump off its revolting. I messed up a lot friendships for doing that in the past, but the fact I did it again made me feel worthless. I was wild when I was younger and I grew from that but I didn’t want to go back to that. I feel horrible about myself. Me and greg aren’t going to tell Jeff but I feel disgusting and what’s worse Jeff is catching feelings. I feel horrible because I feel like I lost mike because he was my go to. So i told him what happened.And I feel lonely and worthless. How can improve myself from what I’ve done
It's nobody's business whom do you sleep with, specially not of your exes, you are free, they are free. It's ok to regret doing it if it's something you would have preferred to think about it before, but how this will affect the other men in your life, you are overthinking it. Your first ex, the friend of the guy you slept with, you don't even like so you don't owe him anything, and him and the guy will handle their own problems (and I hope he'll get the message to move on with his life from this). As for you most recent ex, as you are separated you don't owe him being exclusive, and don't take any negativity coming from him about what happened, he has no right to make you feel bad about it. Nobody involved in this has a right to do it.
Its ok,people do make mistakes. Don't feel miserable. The best thing is that you know what you have done whether it is right or wrong. In the present and future just be careful handling relationships. Past is past,let it go. Don't thing what happened,think how can you handle relationships now,may be it is your friend or boyfriend or would be boyfriend or any kind of relationship. All have some kind of PAST.