My ex jeff from 4 years ago which wasn’t serious since I was so young. Well I’ve always been attracted to his best friend greg but was never going to act on it because that’s horrible. Well now I’m older and me my ex started rehashing things but km not taking him seriously since my recent ex mike is still on my mind. I honestly just sleep witjt the kid and I like how we connect and how its not serious. Well last might I went out with Greg and some other friends and got pretty messed up, and I ended up having sex with him. I immediately felt horrible. Greg isn’t really taking as serious from what I spoke with him about. But the fact now I’m considered a jump off its revolting. I messed up a lot friendships for doing that in the past, but the fact I did it again made me feel worthless. I was wild when I was younger and I grew from that but I didn’t want to go back to that. I feel horrible about myself. Me and greg aren’t going to tell Jeff but I feel disgusting and what’s worse Jeff is catching feelings. I feel horrible because I feel like I lost mike because he was my go to. So i told him what happened.And I feel lonely and worthless. How can improve myself from what I’ve done