I need afvice because I’m confused about my sexuality

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Hello… Okay so, here goes.

I’m 18 and I’ve always considered myself as a straight female and felt very sure of my sexuality (despite being EXTREMELY uncomfortable around guys for the last 5+ years due to extenuating circumstances).

Now, don’t get me wrong, I definitely always appreciated a beautiful woman, who doesn’t, women are gorgeous… but I never thought I could like… LIKE a woman, you know?

Well recently, I had my first kiss with this guy who I was actually really close and comfortable with at least at the time but that’s another story and it was more than a peck on the lips okay, we like made out and such… but the thing is. I didn’t feel … anything? Like I’m not unreasonable okay, I wasn’t expecting fireworks or that ridiculousness, but. It just. I didn’t really enjoy it. It was ok. It wasn’t good and it wasn’t awful, but I feel like it should have felt like something. You know? Like, I was very aware of like the physical feeling of his lips on mine but that was it and that seems … not the way it should feel? I don’t know.

But to my point… so for some time now, prolly longer than I’m willing to admit to myself I’ve been kinda teetering on questioning my sexuality. Despite having my own obstacles to overcome as far as comfort with intimacy, I’ve been able to imagine myself like kissing or being intimate with a girl in a much more realistic sense than with a guy. But. I have trouble seeing myself like.. together, on dates or in a relationship with Anyone and I honestly just do not know how to feel about any of it and I was really hoping some of you guys might be willing to talk to me and/or give me advice and insight on all this, I’d really appreciate it!

Category: Tags: asked June 11, 2015

3 Answers

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There are five different types of attraction: platonic, romantic, aesthetic, sexual, and sensual. For this matter, let's discuss romantic, sexual, and sensual.

Romantic attraction is the same sort of thing as having a crush on someone. When you were a kid, I'm willing to bet your crushes were sexually innocent, but you still had feelings for them. Romantic attraction is just that--purely in relation to romance. Certainly it can be combined with sexual attraction, but it is certainly normal to not feel sexual attraction to someone but still be attracted romantically to them.

Sexual attraction, on the other hand, is the desire to perform sexual acts with another. You don't have to love someone to have sex with them--as is evident from, say, one-night-stands. Purely sexual relationships are not inherently unhealthy or bad. Sex is a good stress reliever and can be healthy for a number of people. Sex is not less fulfilling if you do not have romantic feelings for your partner.

Sensual attraction is the desire to be physically intimate with another, but in a nonsexual way. For example, feeling a strong desire to kiss or cuddle with another person but not date them or have sex with them. This is separate from romantic and sexual relationships in that it is purely the desire to be physically intimate, and not the desire for a romantic or sexual relationship, although it may accompany them.

From the sounds of things, you are heteroromantic, in that you can only fall in love with and feel romantic attraction towards men. It is also possible that you are bisexual or bisensual, and can feel attraction towards both. You could also be homosensual or homosexual. This is normal. It's perfectly okay to not be heterosexual, heteroromantic, and heterosensual. Attractions are interchangeable and diverse, and even change.

This is not strange or abnormal--it is common for people to feel different types of attraction towards a wide variety of people and genders. Desire is more complex than is commonly believed, but your own nature is not something you should necessarily feel conflicted about. Certainly it's all right if you still feel uncomfortable, but please try to remember that attraction is normal, diverse, and fluid. Your feelings are valid and important, okay?
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The way you're feeling is completely normal and I can honestly say I have felt the same way as you at some point. It's totally normal for women to be attracted to other women, even sexually, and not want a relationship with one. I am also like this and felt I was confused for a while.
Upon meeting my fiancé and falling in love I realised my 'bisexual' feelings were nonsense and were more curiosity than genuine feelings - although there is nothing at all wrong if you do feel more strongly about this. But you shouldn't feel this means you're a full blown lesbian.
There aren't always sparks like you see in romance movies. As long as you're happy and comfortable with a partner the rest doesn't matter.
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i agree it is completely normal i am actually going through the same thing as you and the same age. i have a bf and i have been being attracted to women as well it is perfectly normal don't worry you should experiment during you young years so you are comfortable deciding what is right and if you like boys or girls or both i did that and i realized i like both