Hello… Okay so, here goes.
I’m 18 and I’ve always considered myself as a straight female and felt very sure of my sexuality (despite being EXTREMELY uncomfortable around guys for the last 5+ years due to extenuating circumstances).
Now, don’t get me wrong, I definitely always appreciated a beautiful woman, who doesn’t, women are gorgeous… but I never thought I could like… LIKE a woman, you know?
Well recently, I had my first kiss with this guy who I was actually really close and comfortable with at least at the time but that’s another story and it was more than a peck on the lips okay, we like made out and such… but the thing is. I didn’t feel … anything? Like I’m not unreasonable okay, I wasn’t expecting fireworks or that ridiculousness, but. It just. I didn’t really enjoy it. It was ok. It wasn’t good and it wasn’t awful, but I feel like it should have felt like something. You know? Like, I was very aware of like the physical feeling of his lips on mine but that was it and that seems … not the way it should feel? I don’t know.
But to my point… so for some time now, prolly longer than I’m willing to admit to myself I’ve been kinda teetering on questioning my sexuality. Despite having my own obstacles to overcome as far as comfort with intimacy, I’ve been able to imagine myself like kissing or being intimate with a girl in a much more realistic sense than with a guy. But. I have trouble seeing myself like.. together, on dates or in a relationship with Anyone and I honestly just do not know how to feel about any of it and I was really hoping some of you guys might be willing to talk to me and/or give me advice and insight on all this, I’d really appreciate it!