i just lost my cousin.

Death is something that all beings on this Earth have to deal with. It's hard, but something that we all have to go through. It's tough but what else can you do? Celebrate their lives as they would have wanted. They would never want to see you sad or depressed just because they are gone. Life goes on afterall.

It feels that way right now because everything is fresh. Take your time and think about the happy times you spent with them and understand that while everyone loses people around them that everyone process the experience differently and while some can handle it calmly on the outside they hurt too. Be there for other family members. Take time for yourself to do something that will refresh you. A walk perhaps or going to a movie? Give yourself the permission to not be okay to cry or to laugh at someones joke. Because life is mysterious, wonderful, sad, hilarious, crushing and ever changing. Just know that life will change and be okay to change with it when you least expect it. Most of all take care.