I feel so guilty and horrible

I cut myself 2 and a half years ago when I was about 14. I wasn’t thinking about it and I used a tweezers. Initially, I didnt go deep enough for it to actually bleed. When I initially did it, I washed the tweezers off with soap and water and put it back in a drawer. The problem is that this drawer was family-shared. I know other people used the tweezers. I may have even bled a few times and put the tweezers back. Eventually, I took one of the tweezers so I couldnt hurt anyone, but just yesterday I realized how horrible what I had done was. I know that I have no blood illnesses due to my history, but the thought that I could even endanger my family like that terrifies me? Should i tell anyone? I know no one is sick because they can get their blood drawn and there are no diseases, but I still feel horrible that I even could have possibly hurt someone.

They found out that I did it and I don’t do it anymore. I havent for a year and a half. I’m just very worried that they’re sick because they don’t know how I did it.

I think I’ll tell them soon.

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happywindmill

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Uhm, I think it would be more possible that they had a sickness that you could have got by using the tweezers like that, but they would have told you to not use their tweezers to begin with. I think we are talking of herpes and hepatitis here (both conditions that manifests themselves eventually)? As @whateverdose @braveheartamy said, you could just come clean and let the adults sort this (if years from now you come in touch with a STD, you will appreciate people finding out and telling you they might have given you one), an alternative is to ask this to your doctor. I hope you sort this out, it's probably nothing but it's good to check.

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rinseandrep

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I know you're worried about your family, and that's very sweet [:)], but first things first, I think you should worry about yourself. What caused you to harm yourself? Do you still? If you don't, I applaud you and based on my (amateur) opinion, I don't think any of your family has contracted illnesses. You could casually mention to them that you had a wound and got blood on he tweezers (stretching the truth a bit, but if you REALLY don't want to tell them.. even though I think you should), and could ask them if they're ill or if they should get a blood test or something. (Just in case their blood + yours = bad) Really, I think it's no problem. If you ever want to talk (maybe about anything that concerns you?) you can message me, okay? -Amanda

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braveheartamy

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As long as you cleaned the tweezers each time, you're fine. <3

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Lauren

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