So.. I moved house about 18 months ago so which meant I’d have to catch the bus up to school and back and make new friends and all that so I did. I made new friends but they were all guys.. Everything was fine but there was this one particular guy named Mitchell, he was a year older than me but that didn’t matter, he had caught my bus in the afternoon which was great and he had gone to a all boy school. And we had started talking and sharing pretty personal stuff and we had become bestfriends and he had told me he had feelings for me but I wasn’t sure if I had feelings for him so it was a bit awkward but then I had grown real strong feelings for him back and I told him and he had asked me to be his girlfriend and of course I said yes..
We had dated for about four months and we were really happy, I was really happy, I was a changed person when I was around him or he was around, I was always happy though the relationship, I had done everything to make sure we could hang out, I’d spend all of my spare days at his house to be with him, I’d beg my parents to drive me half an hour away to see him because he was sick. I had spent three days in a row camping with him and his family which was incredible. I literally fell in love with him each day, and he’d even talk about our future..
Anyway a couple of days later after our four month anniversary he ha moved to a public school and I was alright with it, I wasn’t the happiest because I was scared but I was happy for him, and I didn’t see him in the afternoon anymore but I got to sit with him for about 10 minutes in the morning so that was alright.. And then a couple of days before our five month anniversary he had told me he didn’t love me anymore whic absolutely broke me to pieces.. I wasn’t myself, I was miserable, and I had to see him and still have to see him every morning on the bus. Anyway. I tried to keep in touch but I guess he didn’t want me to. He told me we could still be friends but I think he lied, and now about 4 months later I haven’t spoken to him but each time I see him or hear his name I get this feeling a if you actually do see your perfect match. I believe that we should be together because of the feeling I get. I love seeing his smile, all the things I loved I still love. An I have no idea what I’m going to do. I think he’s got another girl but I still love him. I need help! Please. I can’t handle not knowing what to do anymore, it’s killing me.
