i don’t know if i have an eating disorder i’m confused
i think about food most of the time like i crave everything i’ve always told myself when it’s time to eat, i’m going to eat this or something like that but then i don’t really eat or just eat a little because i’m afraid i will gain weight. but sometimes i fucked up eating everything and i feel bad about it but i can’t do shit. i don’t purge tho. it’s just me with a guilty feeling.
You should talk to your doctor about this and see if you can start seeing a therapist and/or a nutritionist. You're heading down a dangerous and deadly path. Get help sooner rather than later. Please. I could go on a whole spiel about how being fat isn't a bad thing, eating is necessary and fuel for your body, every body shape and size is beautiful and we just need to stop judging and comparing because it's not our place. But if you're already having disordered thoughts, it won't do much. So just please, if you don't misery, stomach and intestine problems, heart problems, and a long list of other health problems associated with an eating disorder, get help.
Any disordered thoughts and behaviours, no matter how "small" or "unimportant" are issues that you need to address. These can lead to years of disordered thinking and harmful behaviours that can destroy your body if left unattended to. My advice is to seek out help early on so you don't end up infertile, with the bones of a 50 year old or even dead.If you'd like to talk about this, feel free to message me.