He’s 19, I’m 34. He’s still in college, and I’m a sales executive with a 7-digit salary. He has gambling debts which I am helping him pay off. I pay for all dates, his gym membership, supplements, cellphone bills, hobbies. I have very little control over his life, but he dominates mine completely. He does not enjoy sex with me, and he has said this to me a few times. I feel that he is only using me for all the stuff he gets from me, but I am secretly hoping that he isn’t.
Despite all these, I am afraid to break up with him. I’m afraid of being alone again. He is my first boyfriend. He gives me so much of his time. He can be sweet when he makes the effort.
I would appreciate words of wisdom from anyone with any experience at all on these matters.
Thanks.