Join or start a group in real life for this sort of thing. Women have book clubs, guys have golf or something. Somewhere to escape to with likeminded folks. Maybe you're sick of normal life? All the responsibility.
Maybe take a break from your business, go on holiday; sounds like everything is draining you; you're giving so much of yourself for family and work you've nothing for yourself, to relax or otherwise.
You need to rejuvenate yourself, I think. Spiritually or physically, either way, take time for yourself at some point. A dinner with the missus, without work or kids, or something calming
