Hun, I know what depression is like. I've had it for 11 years, from middle to high school and now my adult life. I understand your troubles, but don't bottle up your depression and your feelings. That wont help, it only makes things worse. Whenever you are depressed, talk to someone about it. No one wants you to die Hun because you do not deserve it. No one does. I am overweight too and I was bullied a lot for it and my depression and bi-polar disorder. I currently take a mood stabilizer called Lamyctal [or however you spell it lol] and an anti depressant called Zoloft. Both have been very helpful to me. Of course medication isn't the only thing that will help, even medication is limited. Talking to someone who loves you like your parents, family members and friends can and will help. No one in this world hates you Hun, I know it seems like it, believe me I do. But God loves you, your parents love you, and your friends love you regardless of what you do. And I love you, though I don't know you in person. As a Christian, I love everyone. If you need anyone to talk to sweetie, you can talk to me =) I'll listen and I will help you in any way I can.