Alright, I do suffer from a case of PTSD. I served in the military, but this should pretty much fall under a lot of others who have some experiences.
Around this time of the year, my distrust and hate of people increases to it’s max. My meds really don’t help around this time. Since this is when, I was betrayed by my fellow soldiers. Ever since than, Around this time I disconnect myself from everything and people. I even, manage to erase people from my memory. Still trying to figure that one out. But, I never go back to them or speak with them again.
Sometimes they do try to talk to me. But only a few, ever do. It really becomes an awkward moment when I can’t remember their names or where I know them from. But I can remember there face to a certain extent. It’s about the only thing that connects the dots for me. However, I do everything in my power to stay away from them. I have even, done this to family. There are a few members, of my family. That I can’t remember much of them. On top of that I avoid them like the plague after I do this.
So my question to anyone on here. Is do you know, how to avoid allowing a certain time frame or day to affect you in a negative way?
Is there any tricks or hobbies, that can keep me from repeating this over and over?
I did have someone tell me it’s similar to what a suicidal person will do before they kill themselves. But, I don’t have the feeling to do so. I do give away any item, that connects me with a person and forget them. But, I have a belief that keeps me from harming myself.
Any tips?
