i used to always deal with suicidal thoughts but i for a year now i havent dealt with it or even thought about it. but now its back. I feel as if i have no reason to live. life has nothing to offer me and i have nobody who loves me. I try to think about how i made it 16 years without killing myself. but that doesnt work anymore. im trying so hard for myself to not do it but its so hard. i just need some help in getting through it all.