There was a guy whom I was friends with a little over 3 years ago.
I had a crush on him, liked him a lot but we didn’t speak to each other very much because we were both shy. So we talked here and there.
2 and a half years ago, he had to move back to his country (as he was a foreign exchange student).
After that I had discovered (through a few of his friends) that he too had liked me when he was staying here.
I tried so hard to forget him for the next year, and I think that feeling turned into love. I think I love him, but what is love? What is it exactly? I’ve had crushes before, oh yes. I’ve also experienced ‘brotherly-love.’ Although, this was different. I’m unsure of how to explain though. I’m 18. Can an 18 year old really know love? What is it?
Up until this day, I’ve been trying to forget but I keep having dreams about him. (nothing sexual. just, dreams that feel like heaven) Probably about 1 or 2, at the least, monthly. I don’t lucid dream either. They feel so real, but they bring him back in my mind and then I can’t forget.
How does one forget? Or if there isn’t a way, how does one cope? That’s the question. Please, anyone.
