All the time, I feel like I don’t have any friends I can talk to or anyone I can really connect with. You could say I’m fairly social in school, but it being summer vacation here, I can’t seem to shake off the feeling that I’m going to be lonely.
A part of this is because my parents are practically dictators who never let me out of the house unless it’s to go shopping or eating with them outside.
They used to a lot when I was younger, but I guess since they think I’ve been corrupted or something, they don’t anymore, because their paranoia is terrible. And I feel terrible because I’ve shot down so many of my friends because of this.
With that, I’ve felt so alone. I haven’t hung out with anyone other than my family since maybe around April. I love my family and I can say my relationship with them is going fairly well, but I just feel so alone, especially when I have darkest thoughts and I just feel like breaking down and crying all the time.
I absolutely loathe this feeling. I literally feel restless because I have not talked to anyone who relates to me on this level. How do I reduce the feeling of loneliness?
