If you think that you are an utter disappointment to your parents,then please don't. They love you no matter what, and you should be kind to yourself. If there has been an issue recently,and thats what is bothering you then talk to them about it, if it was your fault apologise and let them know it won't happen again. Show them that you are aware of your duties and responsibilities. Help them when they need, and volunteer in house chores. Let them know how much you love them and care for them. :)