I met this girl online a while back, we got to talking and we really liked each other. I live in Connecticut and she lives in Florida (I’m 16, shes 18). We planned that over Christmas break, I was going to drive down to see her after Christmas. I had really fallen for her, so I bought her a necklace, it wasn’t anything special, just a plain necklace with a small gold heart pendant. I also got her 2 liter bottles of Birch beer because she said she loved it, but could never find it. I planned that I was going to tell her I loved her while I was there. We decided we were going to meet at the mall. We met up, and the whole time we barely spoke to each other, it was really awkward. I went back to my hotel, pretty bummed that things didn’t go well, so, I texted her the next day and apologized for being so awkward and asked if she wanted to do something again. She didn’t get back to me the whole day, and then she finally told me she was going to be busy with family. I told her that I had some things to tell her that I’d rather say in person, she said if I had something to say, I should say it then. So I told her that I knew a long distance relationship was probably not the most attractive option but I wanted to make it work more than anything else because I thought she was more than worth it. She said she had so much to worry about with graduation, college, and finding a job, that she didn’t think she would have the time and that she wanted to just be friends. That hurt a lot, but not as much as going home from this trip with nothing to show for it. I’m just sitting here now with a necklace, two bottles of birth beer, and a head full of words I should have said. If I had given her any of those things, I could At least say I tried, That I gave it my all and things just didn’t work out. But no, I’m just sitting here without any closure, and with the fear that if I try to approach her with these things now, I’ll just scare her off and she’ll never talk to me again. I’ve never made someone want to stop talking to me in my life, and the last person I’d want to start with is her.
