Ok so in the summer I dated this guy, i was 15 he had just turned 19 and graduated from high school. I always felt some kind of connection or attraction between us when we talked in school, and he said he wanted to keep in touch after he graduated. In the summer we started dating, The whole summer we were going on dates and I’d go over to his house. He even introduced me to his parents and granparents. I believed he was just the coolest and sweetest guy I had ever dated. I was totally head over heels for him and i trusted him, i had no reason not to. I’m a very trusting person, well I used to be. I was falling for him and I was foolish. I trusted him with some personal things and I’m ashamed to talk about it to anyone. he was going out of town to college so we spent a lot of time together. He left to college and we still talked and everything. Everything was great, I was so happy and it too good to be true. one day I found out what was really going on. I trusted the wrong guy. He had a fucking gf. I mean we never really said what we were but he treated me like his gf, not a sideline chick or anything. It felt like a relationship. He shared my personal stuff with all of his friends. His gf found out what was going on and acted as if it didnt bother her. they’re still together and everything. I was heartbroken. I felt incredibly stupid. I was played. And it didnt stop there, as if what he did wasnt bad enough, he started rumors saying i was a easy freak and i gave it up to him easily and that is not true i never had sex with him. But according to him and everyone else i was a slut. Him and his friends found a way to blackmail me and i can never get away from it. Ashamed to say im not over it and its been 2 years. I think about him and the situation everyday. but How am i suppose to let it all go and get over it if I cant get away from the situation itself. It never ends. everytime my life is getting better this somehow gets brought up into my life again wether its a new rumor going around or blackmail and it tears me apart and breaks me all over again. Idk how to make it all stop how to get away from the situation. And what sucks is that I did nothing wrong tothis guy I did nothing to make him mad or hurt him. Nothing to desreve this. I was just a game to him. One last thing to play with before he went off to college. This whole thing has really changed me and I’ve lost myself. Ever since all that happened people noticed a change in me, they noticed i was unhappy or depressed and quiet. Idk how to get them to ever leave me alone. Way too many people think they know what happened when reallly all they know are the rumors he made. I haven’t had a relationship or even tried to get in a relationship since then because i just cant trust anyone. I constantly feel judged or i feel like the only reason a guy wil start talking to me is because they heard the rumors and think im easy and im ok with being the side chick. I feel like i cant get into a relationship because the whole thing would be a lie everything before was. I push people away. I feel like any guy who tries talking to me like that just wants sex or something. Idk how to get past this.
