How do I deal with a breakup that I don’t want?

We have spent hours in each others presence, phone and video. He was not a falsehood. He's going through an awful time medically and has pushed me away, likely in his mind for my own good.Thanks for answering though.... I already know there won't be a next time.

That's rough especially when he's struggling in his personal life. I mean just because you've broken up doesn't mean you can't still express that you care about him and what he is going through. But there's only so much you can do sometimes - especially if he's pushing you away.

That's a very rough feeling and I'm sorry that you are experiencing this. The best thing I can recommend to you right now is to fully get involved in activities and distractions. Go out with your girlfriends, go running, write, watch funny TV shows, that kind of thing. I know it doesn't take away the inner pain but it can definitely be helpful in times like these where you need a distraction. I would also recommend talking to someone you trust about what you feel and what you are going through. Maybe you could try to only talk or think about it at designated times, so that it would not begin to dominate your life and hurt you more. I know it's super hard right now but I know that you will find someone who is absolutely amazing. xx