How do I admit it?

Darling, I know exactly what you're going through...I went through it all 2 weeks ago, go ahead and message me

I would definitely suggest you talk to your school counselor. I have when I was in high school and it was a very pleasant experience. Even if you feel like you may not be able to tell them everything just talking with them and simply saying that you have a problem is a great start. Remember that they're there to help people just like you. I've been in your shoes a couple years back and this has really helped me. Good luck!

Whenever I have trouble coming out about things that need to be said, I write it out. I'd suggest maybe sending an email. Collect all your thoughts and the only difficult part should be clicking send. This way you can get the help you need without the awkwardness of doing it face to face. I know what it's like to not be able to admit to depression. I was ashamed when my boyfriend found out. It was probably the most embarrassing thing that I've ever gone through, but it has lead me to have a more honest and open relationship. I think the toughest step is telling people that you need help, but once you do I'm certain that they'll be there for you when you need it.

Just spit it out..