Well firstly, don't do anything to yourself. This is a priority. If you REALLY feel suicidal, just say "I'll wait 1 week before I do anything." Give yourself some time to hope for a change. If you want your mother to understand, then you'll have to take the initiative in making her understand. You have to confront your parents maturely and in the right mindset otherwise you can't present yourself properly. If you wish for people to stop picking on you, then you're going to have to ask for help, fight back, or even potentially run away, you can't just say "I'm fine with it." and keep taking it if it is making you consider suicide. Realize the your life is important and that you CARE about your life. You don't want to die do you? You just want the problems to stop. If Life wants to fuck with you, fuck with it. Change things, mutilate life until it understands that it can't mess you up. You can't just give up and run away from it all... that's like saying you don't care about being able to live. Wouldn't you want to live a life full of happiness? If you do, you're going to have to be the one who stands up and change things.