Hello Ian, and thank you for sharing your feelings with us.
Nobody ever timidly stumbled their way into any kind of success. If you want to get ahead, you're going to have to bolster your sense of self-worth, find things about yourself that you like, and learn to appreciate yourself as you continue to grow.
It is the reliability that comes with confidence that is infinitely more attractive than any figure or clothes or jewelry.
Please keep in contact and let us know how things are going in your life. Always remember that you matter, and you are not alone.