Hello, I hope you're still hanging in there. It may feel like you're alone, but you have people on here who will help and support you. I'm sorry that everyone you know is leaving you..if they're fake friends maybe it's better in the long run that they leave. If they can't be bothered to text you, include you in plans, etc. then maybe you're better off without them. I would suggest giving them one last try. If you have friends who you have been friends with for awhile you don't want to just cut them out while you're emotionally raw. It most likely isn't what you want to do, but text them, call them, or try to see if you can make some plans that will actually go through. Try not to worry too much about your boyfriend. I don't know how your relationship is, but if he's a decent person he should stick with you in your times of need and be understanding of your current situation. I would highly suggest trying to find activities you enjoy. Start small if you must, just go outside and get some fresh air. Walk down to a park, drive around town with the windows down while blasting music, visit stores you love or have never been in, buy some cds or books, visit a farmers market, go stand in the rain during your next thunderstorm,etc. Find ways to enjoy life's simple pleasures. This summer doesn't have to be a bad one. Neither does this year. If you can, find an art form you like, start writing, join a yoga class, take cooking lessons, volunteer, do something to get your mind off things. I would highly recommend therapy if you can go to sessions, I feel like it would be very beneficial. There could even be something in the area similar to this where people meet up to talk to strangers about their life. Also, for your birthday, you should try to have a good day. See your mom, or your boyfriend, or both. Please don't spend your birthday alone and unhappy. You could go with your mom to your cottage and swim all day and then eat birthday cake. You could also go have brunch together somewhere before you leave for the cottage. Swim until you feel like your fingers are prunes and your arms are tired. Lastly, take time for yourself every single day. Curl up (with your favorite food or a bowl of ice cream) and watch some feel-good movies. Take a long, hot bubble bath while drinking wine and listening to some soft music. Make yourself breakfast while you dance around the kitchen in your pjs. Read a book, maybe an old book you loved when you were a kid, and drink some tea/coffee. Go and get your hair or nails done (or both!). Treat yourself to a massage at a local salon. Buy tickets to go see a band you like when they come to town. Take time every day for yourself and it'll pay off. YOU are the most important person in your life. You're a beautiful person and self-love/self-nurture is the best gift you could possibly give yourself. Always remember that you're never alone. Lastly, happy birthday! I hope your birthday is amazing and you feel happier and loved <3
