I feel like the whole world is against me. i just started my junior year in highschool, before school ended last year, i got into a relationship with a boy in my grade. over the summer, we talked on the phone and texted. but we couldnt see eachother. when i was going to go fishing with my cousin. mom and stepdad. i called him because something was wrong. he wanted to talk to me when we got back to school. i decided to talk to him then and he told me he was iffy about the relationship because of what he did. Now what he did was that he and i had phone sex a few days before and he feels bad because it was my first time doing it and i couldnt wrap my head around it. i simply told him that i wanted to do it and that it was a new experience for me. he just said okay and i thought i managed to talk him out of being iffy. Little did i know was that he was planning on breaking up with me on the first day of school. he said that he saw me as a friend, the privacy was too low and that we were both too busy to be with eachother. you see, i can’t help that the privacy was too low becuase i have a big family and its really hard to find a private spot in my house. i couldnt stand to be outside because i was getting eaten alive by mosquiteoes and it was too hot and humid. Anyway, when he was going to talk to me we went outside in the hallway and as we were walking, one of his friends were walking by and he smiled at us. Little did he know that that was the last time we were going to talk to each other. My very close friend also told me that he was freaking out about our relationship, he always said to her that he missed me. Not only that but, it seemed like he just wanted me for sex. he would ask me if he could have phone sex and when i said know he would smooth talk me into it or would try to. he wouldnt stop bothering me about sending him a naked picture of me. i get the feeling he thought i was easy since i am insecure and don’t have much confidence in myself. i guess when he realized that i wasnt “thirsty” he dropped me and is probably mad that he couldnt get any. At first i thought that it wasn’t a big deal and that i would get over it, but i was wrong and it hurts, i feel betrayed, i told him everything. Not only that but, i feel like His friend Logan hates me because of that i’m not in a relationship with his friend. its hard to approach him, when i’m around he doesnt look at me or around me. he just stares straight forward and sits silently. To stay out of his way, i just avoid him and don’t look at him. It feels like the world is against me, the feeling has happened before, but not like this, i’m constantly nervous and i can’t eat. i always accidently bump into my ex, i also have him at lunch which sucks. what should i do?
