I had a girlfriend for two years and we broke up at the beginning of this summer because we wouldn’t be able to see each other. (Her parents are very restrictive and don’t like me) I didn’t feel any heartbreak or sadness at the time or through all the summer until school started again and I saw her everyday. She would speak to me as a friend which I liked but she would talk about her “friends” and casually bring up who she had sex with and then put herself done. (While we were dating and before she had a history of depression, self-harm and low self-esteem) I started to feel like shit and I realized I don’t know if I still…have feelings for her. We were both each others first serious relationship, and each others first sexual partners and we had some very nice times, always had conversations and were good friends. Now I just am torn between hating her for rebounding so quick and hating myself for even caring. She could do whatever she wants and it’s dumb for being angry at her about it, but it feels like she gave up on us. I’ve been ignoring her recently, just treating her like anyone else I barely know. But I still catch myself thinking about her and looking at her.
