I’ve been acting (non-professional but I hope to be) for 5 years now. On stage or behind camera I become very charismatic and I feel right at home. Offstage not so much. In life I’m very quiet and very driven by rules, most teachers deny the fact that I have formal training on stage.
Last year a teacher wouldn’t let me read aloud in class because she said I should take community drama classes first. I”m 15 and have acted at a studio theatre since I was 12. I joined a studio because community classes weren’t enough to keep me focused. I like acting and am pretty decent considering how much time I’ve been at it. This teacher really hurt me and hurt my confidence.
So last week after someone said that I really don’t look like the acting type, I became really self conscious about it. I’ve never been confident in life, so this comment really hit home. Now I can’t stop thinking about it.
Is it normal/okay to feel comfortable on display but not in school or as myself? Does this make me weird? Do you guys have any advice for applying acting to life? I’m really worried and can’t stop doubting myself. I don’t know what I should do. I’m sorry if this is ramble-y.