I’ve been with my girlfriend for almost 2 years now. Our relationship has been odd since we got together. Before I dated her, I had dated her best friend for about 2 months. Her best friend broke up with me, and then started to cause problems in my current relationship. My ex & I tried to be friends multiple times, but it failed because she was such an asshole. Recently she apologized for everything, and we have been texting each other a few times a week, but nothing more than friendly conversation. I’ve been doing this without my girlfriend knowing, because if she knew she would be very angry with me.
Our relationship confuses me, and sometimes I feel like I should leave. My girlfriend gets mad if I were makeup to school, if I want to hang out with friends, if my friends want to hang out with me, if I wear low-cut shirts, and if I text other people while I’m texting her. She is mean to me a lot, and then flips it on me to make it sound like I’m being the asshole. I’ve lost a lot of friends because I wouldn’t hang out with them. I only refused to chill with them because I didn’t want to start a fight with my girlfriend. So many of my friend’s have said she’s controlling, but I always try to explain what she tells me. She says that she’s insecure and she doesn’t want to lose me, and that’s why she acts the way she does. I don’t know if I believe her anymore though. Here lately I have been doubting our relationship. I guess it’s because I’ve grown tired of the constant arguments, but I don’t know. I love her, I would do anything to make her happy, and I don’t want to hurt her feelings; however trying to talk about the problem isn’t an option, because like myself she is depressed and suicidal, so she takes everything I say wrong, like I’m calling her a piece of shit when I’m not. I just have no idea what to do. I’m sorry this is jumbled. If anyone can make sense of this, please help. Thank you.
