First off I would like to mention I am not a super awesome writer so please forgive my grammar spelling and whatever.. I type it how it comes out of my mind..
Like.. I have a friend.. her and I are relatively close I think.. I enjoy her company.. and she claims to enjoy mine.. but it seems as though I can not get her to want to hang out with me or anything.. unless I offer to buy dinner for the both of us.. or a desert or something.. She never wants to hang with me when I am low on cash at the end of the month.. Even if I offer something like maybe a chat over some coffee.. she never wants to just hang and chat.. unless there is food envolved and even then if its only like worth a couple dollars.. like a dollar Ice Cream cone she will have some sort of reason why she doesn’t want to hang out.. Just last night she said we could hang out and when i told her that I really do not have hardly any money though so we couldn’t like do anything like go to dinner.. she got kinda quiet.. and we continued to chat for a couple minutes and then she said she had to go to the bathroom.. and she would call back later.. and well she never called back.. and I have tried calling her back a few times… she does this sometimes.. and the only way I can get her to answer her phone or call me is if I offer to take us both out to like taco bell or something.. There always has to be a reason for us to hang out.. I know she doesn’t have a lot of money ok.. and I realize that she has more expenses than I do.. So she can not really return the favor that often.. She does on a rare occasion offer to pay for the outing.. and she does offer emotional support a lot of the time.. when I can actually reach her.. but if i am not bawling my heart and soul out when I leave her a message or offering dinner she NEVER wants to hang out.. and even then sometimes she still will say she doesn’t feel well when I am not feeling too hot emotionally.. so sometimes she doesn’t come over then either.. I wonder if I should just give up really trying to contact her? and should stop trying to keep our friendship a thing.. or if I should just let it up to her to call me and talk to me.. I can go weeks without talking to her.. I do not know if she actually knows that I think she is taking me for granted.. If she is like just subconscious doing things like this or what.. I know she has major depression and some anxiety issues.. but she can at least tell me shes not feeling well vs just not answer the phone.. like she often does.. I suppose it wouldn’t be so bad if all my friends didn’t move far away… She is like my only friend I still can have actual contact with anymore.. I just don’t know what to think..
Edit: She is a good person. . I like to take her out to dinner and stuff with me.. it just seems strange that she seems only wanting to hang if that is what we are doing.. You guys are right though.. I do not expect her to pay for anything though .. because I understand her situation… I just wish she would be more understanding of my position when I am low on funds my self.. I will have to talk to her about it.. maybe bring up that.. we dont have to be donig anything in order to hang out :p..