So, my life is screwed up. I’m 13yr old girl. My dad died and ive never met him. I live with my aunt, cousin & mom because well i dont know. My mom&aunt are verbally abusive and physically too to my cousin & i. they call me so many names, i cry a lot. They yell and scream and hit. but it’s my fault too, i talk back & dont do things right. I just want to be happy. Sometimes i just want to die but i wont commit suicide. I’ve self harmed before tho. The last about 2 weeks ive been grounded and my mom hasnt really spoken to me at all because i told her i hated her and called her the stupidest mother on earth after we got into an arguement and she hit me. I apologized 3-4 days later saying i didnt hate her. I was just mad at the moment. she still didn’t speak to me which i deserve. Then she said i wasnt allowed to eat any food. I still did so my aunt put a lock and chain around the refrigarator doors. I still got it to open but havent eaten much. Just a few hours ago…she noticed her toilet was overflowing. She questioned my cousin and he lied and said it was me. She believed him and hit me with a plunger. hilarious i know. i just cried. i cant take this anymore. She said since i hated her to leave the house. and i said i’ll just go to foster care. She left for work after and ive been researching some stuff on it. Can someone just give me some advice on what to do?