Here is a sample situation that illustrates my problem:
I think that I am incompetent. I write this down in my journal. I also talk to God and ask him to give me teaching skills.
After a few days, someone talks about a certain teacher who is said to be incompetent and who gave a small grade to one of her students.
Please take note that I am not a teacher.
Now here is the problem: I think that the teacher they were talking about is me.
For some reason, whenever I hear people getting angry about someone, I think that someone is me even though they say they are talking about someone else.
Lately, I always feel guilty in the sense that I think it’s me they’re talking about again even though I know none of what they say is happening in reality. Like the illustration above. I am not even a teacher and hence I was never able to give a small grade to a student yet I somehow feel guilty like they were referring to me when they spoke of that incompetent teacher.
I am not guilty. I just think they are talking about me. If I were a teacher, I don’t think I would give a small grade to any student who deserves a high grade.
I want to heal. Somebody please help me.
