I’m a born male. That doesn’t change the fact that I want to be a girl though… I don’t want to go through the surgery though because I’m in high school and I don’t want to deal with the ridicule. I know it doesn’t matter what others think as long as I’m happy but I wouldn’t be happy surrounded by judgmental, sexist, ignorant, insecure assholes. That wouldn’t change after highschool either though, so I can’t see myself ever undergoing the sex change operation. The shitty thing is that I’m not happy as a male either. Seeing girls laugh and flip their hair and everything makes me hurt deep down because I’ll never be that way… It also doesn’t help that I’m into girls, so I’d be a lesbian to boot. I don’t want social ridicule but I also don’t want to live life as a male. I guess you could say I’m in a shitty, shitty pickle…