Throughout my life, I’ve seen psychologist after psychologist. A few have diagnosed me with different forms of autism, and others have seen me as perfectly normal. Why is this?
I can see why they would think this, in a way. It would explain my technical ability. I can basically form an abstract idea of what a block of code will do in my head as I’m writing it, which makes it really easy. I don’t even need to add comments in my projects because I remember what every argument is for. I’m about as socially inept as one could be, yet I could sit here and find memory leaks on the Linux kernel if I were ever that bored. Sometimes I’ll become so enveloped in a project that I just won’t sleep until I’m done or I’m crashed out with my head laying on my keyboard. And last time I took an IQ test, I scored a 179. No, it wasn’t an online test. I actually had someone sit me down and give me an arsenal of tests.
So what’s the more likely possibility? Am I just smart or am I really autistic? Considering the negativity associated with autism, I’m not sure if I could accept the latter.