This is gonna get kinda odd. So I am a 15 year old dude. I don’t have a girlfriend even though I’ve been told girls like me, I don’t feel like going through dating until I can drive. I masturbate as teen guys do usually, and I do this thing instead of porn. I would go on omegle and say Im a girl. We would roleplay or something and he’d think I’m jacking off to him but really we’re both jacking off to this imaginary 19 f. Soon to move things forward I created a kik, with a fake profile picture. I was exchanging nudes and got turned on when people told me how hot “I” was.
To get more convincing, and to ‘expand’ I have created a full profile on Facebook, with photos, random friends, interests, etc, with pictures of someone at my high school. I starting talking about my imaginary roommate to move on discussion, my imaginary abusive boyfriend, and of course I’m bisexual so my imaginary ex girlfriend. Tonight I’ve crossed the threshhold, I have 4 fake profiles, all friends who bicker and chat in comment sections. Fake timeline posts, messaging some poor sucker as two girls at once, two roommates who just fought. I chat with him and sext him at the same time.
This is no longer about sex. People are driven to me because of lust but I no longer crave that, now I drag people into my own fake personal drama of fighting roommates, a mean boyfriend, a lesbian ex girlfriend who has lots to say, Ive been off of school and just went on these profiles for hours. It is now 1 AM the day of thanksgiving and I realized that this is really bad. Like, I knew it was bad before but I’ve gone too far.
Is this a mistake because Im a virgin teenage boy and I need to tear down those profiles or is there something wrong with me? I’m not gonna do a tldr because I really think people need to hear the whole story. I didn’t expect it to get this far it just did and I kind of like it.
