In a way, you ARE justified. I mean, surely you're familiar with Cinderella? Think of the Evil Stepmother. "Evil" is even in her title. She took care of Cinderella, but she never loved her in return. Just because someone brought you into this world or is technically taking care of you doesn't mean you automatically have to or are forced to love them. Sometimes people don't earn your love, and therefore don't deserve to have it. Anyone who makes you feel like that frequently should be aware that they aren't endearing themselves to you, and can't expect your affection. However, I do think it would be a good idea to somehow find a way to re-establish a loving relationship with your mom. A talk, maybe? Bonding time? Whatever happens, I hope everything goes well!