there must be something wrong with me I’m 21 and still living with my mother who seems to be physiologically abusing me to try and get me to leave. contestant questions about my weight and why am i so useless and still living with her as she has “done her duty” are really getting me down. i try and talk to her but that doesn’t work when i say anything she blows up in my face and it starts all over again she just doesn’t understand. i would move out but money is an issue i just can’t afford it alone i try to explain this and i still get it thrown back at me ten times worse. i don’t what to do any more i don’t why she hates me but she can’t love me if she did she wouldn’t say such things to hurt me all the time. “GET OUT, YOUR USELESS, YOU NEVER DO ANYTHING, YOUR JUST GOING TO ROT AWAY IN TO NOTHING, YOU SO SELFISH IN STAYING AT HOME, WHY SHOULD I CARE MY DUTY IS DONE, GO RUNNING TO SOMEONE ELSE WHO CARES MORE THEN I DO, YOU WILL NEVER FIND LOVE LOOKING THEY WAY YOU DO, YOUR FAT AND A PAIN IN THE ASS, I’M SICK OF LOOKING AFTER PEOPLE MAINLY YOU” the thing is i pay board depending on how much she wants at the time, i sleep in the box room with isn’t even 3×3 meters when there is a spare bedroom and bed three times bigger then the one I’m in now and i don’t hardly eat anything in the kitchen i buy most of my food and toiletry’s and i don;t even come out of that room only to let the dog out when it needs to go and that’s it. i started self harming again. and i need some shimmer of hope to stop me from cutting any harder then i already do. i need someone to tell me it’s going to be ok because i have cried myself to sleep for the past month only to be told to shut up please help
Hi Abz. I hope I can be a light in the fog you're living in right now. Let me tell you it's completely normal to still be living at home at 21. In this economy, people have to be stable financially to attempt it. I guess in the mean time, save up so you can leave as soon as possible. Not because your mother is right, but because YOU deserve BETTER. I want to go over there and slap some sense into her....but I'm not sure that would help. She takes care of others for a living? (or any other situation?) I feel for those people too. She has no manners. I think she does love you deep deep down, but I may just be trying to find the best in her. She doesn't deserve your pain or tears.
Your weight is another issue, which shouldn't be an issue! Feel comfortable in your own skin and love who you are. Listen to the song- All About That Bass by Meghan Trainor http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7PCkvCPvDXk Also note she's GORGEOUS. (The line where she says Mama says don't worry..., substitute any other person, like an idol. Really listen to those lyrics though. hope they make you smile.
I hope you can save up enough to rent somewhere away from her. Stay strong! All the best etc!
There's nothing wrong with you. Your mom is the problem. As you said, she's abusing you. I wonder if there is possibly anyone else (a trusted family member or friend) who you could live with instead? This is obviously a very toxic environment you're living in.
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