so few months ago … i decided to step out of my home . I was very lonely and sad before so i decided to go out for walks . I had frnds only in school .
so saw some guys playing soccer and i used to play before where i used to live earlier . i asked them if i could play and i played then . made some new frnds , started playing regularly . things were good .. and today shit happened
this guy who is a cunt , was messing with me .. not for the first time though .
I told him to back off ( he is a year yoiunger than me ) … he was being a prick yet again
so i went on a abusing spree … threatened him … still abusing him .. him retaliating and i am ready to kick his ass .. but i walk out instead .. other guys block us off and i walk off ready to call my school frnds to help me kick his ass but i did not go through with it (AND THIS IS VERY FIRST TIME I HAVE DONE ANYTHING LIKE THAT , I AM NOT THAT TYPE OF GUY ) but he was jsut being a cunt …
it has ended and is not a big deal … but i just feel angry and sad now .. screw that guy
i was a bit frustrated for real .. things are not going well .. i want to make my life better but just cant seem to do it .. i was going good … had not been so down in months
and then came today … i just feel so alone and lonely sometimes..
i know i should focus on the positive …
but i just loose my focus at times … i wish things were simpler , they were better , i wish the world was not littered with assholes like him .
i am sorry i just want to know … why do i overthink stuff … ? how do i stop ?
how do i be happy with myself ?
please help me out .. i dont know what to say .. i am just broken