Wow, that’s from a lot ago. Check this:

Avoid Shame Boomerangs

I’m just going to go with “shame” here, although they could also be called Anxiety Boomerangs, Remorse Boomerangs, [Pretty Much Any Negative Emotion] Boomerang.

Here’s what it looks like: Inciting shame incident → bad feelings → forgetting and/or getting distracted for a little while → shame boomerang returns → bad feelings the sequel, all damn day.

So here’s what you do:

1. Acknowledge to yourself that you screwed up and then take any and all possible steps to correct it.
2. Figure out how you will avoid making this same mistake again.
3. Decide on your coping mechanism mantra that you will repeat to yourself when the shame boomerang whacks you on the head again (“It’s done, and I won’t do it again), then play a fun mental game like deciding what you would name a trio of Siamese kittens.

(from ”Steps to being an Adult” by Kelly Williams Brown)

In your case, you aren’t even sure you have any fault, but, let’s assume you have a tiny bit, try it out.

i’m not that sure how to deal with the negative emotions. I don’t know how to feel better. I can make believe i feel better but in actuality don’t really. So I’m not sure…

it’s like i loose track of the many things that are a mess… anyway… I’ve said my prayers… so why i am feeling this way? I don’t know.