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    finnian posted an update 4 years, 12 months ago

    really truly my life is going back to shit and why wouldn’t it
    I had to leave my clinic job, I miss them all so fucking much and I can’t return because I really fucked myself. I didn’t have a job for almost two months which sent me down this spiral of feeling totally worthless.
    My boyfriend is burning himself , I can’t fuxking stand that shit. It triggers me more than most things seeing it physically makes me sick to my stomach and at the same time i crave the feeling to hurt myself again. I don’t want to I’ve been clean for months but it’s so hard to resist sometimes
    I can’t let myself slip into a depressive episode i don’t know what I’d do. I’m trying to stay strong for my bf because I obviously cannot do it for myself
    I bit the fuck out of my lip but that pain isn’t good enough fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
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      Oli replied 4 years, 12 months ago

      Please don’t let life’s struggles get you down @peiyopei, things will work out for you Finnian and everything will be OK, I’m sure you will find another job or you may get your clinic job back, try to stay positive and surround yourself with happiness, do look after yourself mentally, emotionally and physically Finnian, take care of yourself and your boyfriend, let your boyfriend know that you love him and you don’t want to see him hurting himself, talk to each other and keep the lines of communication open with each other so you can make the relationship stronger, hold your head up high and keep fighting, you will be OK and you will make it through this Finnian, always believe in yourself and never give up, you can do it Finnian, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)