Just need now & always before some validation and acknowledgement from the people in my life, especially my family. Even in times of stress I am not allowed to feel. My depression, my fatigue, my anxiety, my trauma, my self-harmful methods I’ve done (problem – shopping, binging and purging, suicidal ideations) are all overlooked, disregarded and not given a thought. I don’t need nor want heaps of ”ooo u poor thing” ew no! Just some simple validation of my suffering and what I go through especially now more than ever, and acknowledgement of what has happened and continues to happen in my life and in my head… but no. I am always overlooked. I am treated as if I don’t exist. My mere existence to my family (and my friends because apparently we are subconsciously drawn to those we experienced as a kid) is to be someone who exists for THEM. Never myself. I’ve never been allowed to have an identity, to feel, to be noticed, to be seen and to be made to feel comfortable with expressing that I am indeed human too. It just sucks lol. And if it keeps happening throughout my childhood, and now my young adulthood – it’s going to keep happening and I’ll never be satsfied and free.