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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    Just need now & always before some validation and acknowledgement from the people in my life, especially my family. Even in times of stress I am not allowed to feel. My depression, my fatigue, my anxiety, my trauma, my self-harmful methods I’ve done (problem – shopping, binging and purging, suicidal ideations) are all overlooked, disregarded and not given a thought. I don’t need nor want heaps of ”ooo u poor thing” ew no! Just some simple validation of my suffering and what I go through especially now more than ever, and acknowledgement of what has happened and continues to happen in my life and in my head… but no. I am always overlooked. I am treated as if I don’t exist. My mere existence to my family (and my friends because apparently we are subconsciously drawn to those we experienced as a kid) is to be someone who exists for THEM. Never myself. I’ve never been allowed to have an identity, to feel, to be noticed, to be seen and to be made to feel comfortable with expressing that I am indeed human too. It just sucks lol. And if it keeps happening throughout my childhood, and now my young adulthood – it’s going to keep happening and I’ll never be satsfied and free.

    • Your family should support, love and care about you @invincible, they should acknowledge and support you so you can overcome all the struggles and hurdles that life throws at you sweetie, there is absolutely nothing wrong with having feelings and emotions, like you said beautiful angel Cecelia, it shows you are human, please remember you do matter and you are worth it Cecelia, never feel sad about expressing yourself Cecelia, do let your thoughts out here on BT Cecelia, no matter what happens, you will win all your battles Cecelia, be kind to yourself because you are so brave, incredible and wonderful, the BT community will always be here for you and so will I sweetheart, you are a survivor who never gives up Cecelia, feel free to inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)