i’m pretty scared. I’ve come to a realization that I like people mostly because I can’t have them. If I can’t have them, they are so much more.. valuable to me. I don’t know why? It’s fucked up. I feel horrible about it. Cause.. I will do ANYTHING to have them. I become obsessed. It turns into a twisted sort of love, that isn’t love at all.…[Read more]

mom still doesn’t seem to understand my situation. somehow still ignorant about things i’ve told her years ago. sometimes just when you feel like you’re out of the hole you’ve been stuck in, you realize you’re the deepest you’ve ever been.