That’s not right at all @kinkymomo, your mother has absolutely no right to attack you, she should believe, support, love and be there for you Kinkymomo, you deserve so much better because what you have been through is not your fault, your mother should protect you from your abuser, not blame you Kinkymomo, please try to find a place where you will be safe, looked after and cared for Kinkymomo and please reach out to someone who will support you, I wish I could do more to help, be strong and never give up Kinkymomo, feel free to inbox me anytime if you ever need to talk, stay strong, you are never alone (hugs)