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    Oli posted an update 8 years, 1 month ago

    Honestly I feel like such a horrible, awful and worthless person, there is so much sadness and loneliness, I just don’t know where to turn or how to be truly happy, I just annoy people, no matter where I go, whether it is life generally, online or school, I was treated like a disease that people avoided, it’s so hard for me to form meaningful relationships with people because I’m so awkward and shy, everything I have ever done ends up failing eventually, I just feel like giving up, I’m a disappointment to myself and to everyone, it’s really difficult to put on a fake smile every-day, how I get through each day, I just don’t know, I’m sorry for bringing myself down as well as this community, I see these four walls and that is it, my room becomes my prison, this hole of depression becomes darker and there’s nothing I can do, why bother?, I’m so sorry everyone for everything I have done, I hate myself, I don’t care about myself so why should anyone, I’m so disgusting and stupid :(

    Mood : Depressed
    • i love you.

    • Oli, you’re one of the best people I ever know. You remember when I message you asking how you can be so great all the time and your reply was ”I just love making people smile”? You’re so selfless and near perfect! Your imperfections just make you the unique angel you’re truly are. I always tell people who’s willing to hear me and I tell them about you and how I imagine how you are in real life. Sad and mad possibly? Yes because that’s common emotions but what makes you special is that you don’t allow that to dictate you and to become a permanent emotion. React to your emotions if you must but tomorrow, please become that grand person that you truly are :) sorry for the long post. Hope you feel better soon!

    • My dude, I hear you, and if I can lend a hand in some way let me know.
      I know I can at least answer the question you posed with the truth that has been revealed to me…
      Why bother? Well, quite simply the answer is:
      Because, you. are. it. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fcPWU59Luoc
      ”If you are going through hell… KEEP GOING”
      -Winston Chruchill
      Best regards.
      J

    • Oli , I have never met someone nice , sweet , and caring like you . You have helped me with everything . You should be feeling this was you always being good with people and you have never been mean to people . Your a good person . If u need someone to talk to I’m here anytime you would like

    • You are such an incredibly sweet person

    • people dont deserve someone as good as you Oli.
      Just because you are not in majority doesnt make you stupid or anything! :)

    • Yesterday i posted something and you commented on it something that was so incredibly sweet and so nice it brought me to tears. Literally I sobbed. You shouldn’t hate yourself. Not at all. I don’t know you but i know that you are an amazing person. Thank you. <3
      ~El.