So I’ve been having problems making friends all my life, i’m extremely awkward, I find it hard to pick up social queues sometimes, I get EXTREMELY anxious when outside the house. Every group of friends I’ve been in have all just teased and made fun of me until it breaks me, then I just have a total mental breakdown, and I don’t know how to fix it.
I’ve been in this skype group for a few months now, and it’s starting to happen again, where they are kinda quick to usher me away from them, and screw and fuck with my head the entire time, saying I can’t hear what they’re going to say, saying that they can’t trust me with it, and just always doing this, and it PISSES ME OFF. EVERY GODDAMN TIME THIS HAPPENS, AND I DON’T KNOW WHY. It gets like this every time, and it gets me to the point of ripping out my hair, the twitching, hearing my stupid consciousness belittle me all the time, I just want people to stop with it. I just want to know how to make it stop.