So i have NOT had “those” thoughts for a while…. but now that im going to a therapist i feel like i have to tell her about them. And since that has been floating against the back wall of my brian today it came up as an option. I have sufferd with depression for 3 1/2 years and the thoughts started right away with the depression but have not been around much since afer the first year or so.
Today afterschool i got home an di just broke down. Full out crying, anxiety attack, resulting in feeling really tired and thinking, if i left all of this behind, i could just die and it would be over. But i relized what i was doing and i distracted myself with homework. I guess my question is :: will the thoughts ever go away? How can i ditch them and keep them away. Help i hate feeling like this.