As someone with a parent similar to your father (albeit more on the depressive than angry side), I understand how you feel. The one thing you won't be able to change is your outward situation. That is, you can't get a replacement family or run off to the circus. Also understand that your father isn't intentionally behaving the way he is. He needs professional help, and I would talk to him or your mother about that if he isn't receiving therapy already. What you can definitely change is you attitude toward the situation. You're stuck with this dysfunctional family, so why not make the most of it? Learn to be compassionate even when it seems impossible. Learn to love even when the other person is spewing out hatred. Hate begets hate, so fighting back will only lead to deeper suffering. If you can, distancing yourself may prove beneficial, but realize it isn't a cure. Find an extracurricular activity and spend time away from home pursuing your interests. Above all, seek to have compassion towards this unwanted situation. Healing and wisdom will come with time.
