I am taking a stagecraft class, and we use power tools, so people get hurt very often. I was working with an advanced student, and she gets hurt a lot, and its a running joke, so she talks about her injuries a lot. when we were drilling into a piece of wood, I hit a knot in the wood and the drill slipped and I accidentally cut her with it. I felt horrible, and I apologized several times, but she wouldnt let it go, and she kept being over-dramatic and wrapping her entire hand in a bandage instead of just getting a little band-aid. everyone kept asking her what happened to her hand, because it was wrapped in the bandage, and she would say “oh kim gashed my hand with the drill!” and she would say it with a laugh, but I felt terrible, I don’t know why she couldn’t just say she got cut with a drill, she just made a huge point of making sure everyone knew it was my fault. I felt so bad, and than everyone else kept walking up to me and saying “so I heard you cut her with the drill!” and I was super embarrassed and guilty about it, but I had apologized, so there wasn’t anything else for me to do.
I was having a bad day anyway, and I am new and trying really hard to become a part of this community of people, and this crushed me because I hurt someone and everybody was laughing at me about it, I felt so stupid, even though it was an accident ive seen the advanced students make all the time.
people have hurt me several times in that class on accident, and I always make sure to brush it off no matter how bad it hurts and try and assure the people its ok, i feel like that is just common courtesy. but because she kept complaining about it and making a big deal of pointing it out and making jokes that I shouldn’t be trusted with a drill. I feel so crushingly guilty, and I hate myself so much about it! I just feel like I cant do anything right in my life. I like this girl as a friend, and I havent known her for long. and I dont want this to ruin my relationship with everyone else, they arent being mean, just joking, but i feel terrible.
should I just hope this goes away? or how should I handle this?
