I’ve had a pretty messed up past, but from my 13 year old age I’ve experienced the typical experiences in life,
parents divorcing, having a step-parent, losing a family member, “breaking up” with a really close friend not long after mourning, sexting online, losing my innocence (not virginity, but just innocence.)..But don’t get me wrong, I have had happy experiences, there is some light in this stupid life! Shocker
But anyways I’m just worried, since all of those things have made cracks on my glass mind, and caused all sorts of issues (like mental illnesses) I’m just wondering if I’m like a “troubled” girl? it’s like I’m just cracked, cracks are all over my “glass”..
I mean all my classmates have no cracks on their glass, maybe just a few scratches here and there, maybe really small cracks, so they barely have any problems, but for me, I feel like I’m damaged or something. Like a rotten egg amongst perfect eggs. I mean SURE, I can still get hyped up, I can still be happy and I can still definetly be careless about life but sometimes I break down, but it’s mostly hormones or painful memories, I’m pretty sure I don’t have depression, well, unless you can have it for only 3-4 months after your best friend leaves you but I’m over that?
Like even 2-3 months after losing a family member I was laughing and being super hyper with my friends (who are sadly my ex-friends now though) some were even concerned that I was on drugs lol. But they all left me because they felt the need to hurt me when I was mourning and having hard times again x) Great friends right? I deserve that clearly.
Soo, I’m just wondering, do you think I can actually handle the shit life can give better than all those happy idiots in my school? I just really don’t want to be labaled as the “troubled girl” on my future records or something. D: But obviously I want those things to stop happening, I’m scared that I’m cursed or something.. :/ It’s a good thing this life hasn’t messed up my grades and future plans, but mainly my relationships which sucks
I also really don’t get it why people see my problems as nothing, I mean, maybe they’re nothing to you, but they are the whole death for me, I’m the most sensitive person you could ever meet in your life.