It really bothers me right now that I don’t feel happy of what I am doing, what I have (physically), the course that i am taking right now. I feel like a loser right now because I feel like I haven’t accomplished anything good lately, and I feel like I should do something about it. I feel jealous of my 2 best friends right now, because they are doing good in school, but they haven’t messaged me on how I am doing in my life. I feel like a threat to them because I feel like I might ruin their image or reputation in life because their successful and im not. But I have to tell you that I am well-supported by my mom (not to be a total brag) She has been supporting me financially but not morally because sometimes when I ask something emotional, she just nags about it and I never really feel any better. But she is a good mother because she humbly supports us all in the family. But I still really feel unhappy of my life because of the failures I committed through out my life especially in my academics. I’m might say that I am not as bright and as studious as the rest but I can achieve my studies too, but when I get too emotional, I usually get so negative and forget the important thing I need to do. I am currently a total loner, I don’t have that much friends, but I want to have more friends, but Im really shy and I kinda have a social issues when it comes to socializing. Bottom line, I don’t really know myself. I want to succeed in life, I want to overcome these problems, I want to feel like I’ve done something that makes my friends and family proud of me. I want to be somebody.
