I try to be good to everyone and feel, people just, lie about me, bully me, and I take it until I can't then when I explode I am the bad guy. I have a lot of social anxiety. I have worked in past, but it is hard for me. I actually was physically hit in face by a drunk girl. She did apologize and I didn't do much because I was at work party and didn't want to cause a bigger seen. Why when people start am I always the one looking bad when I finally defend myself from mental, emotional and sometimes physical attacks. And it's even harder when your drug addicted family lives above you send you have nowhere to be move to run away.