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    ladybug48 posted an update 8 years, 6 months ago

    My mother and I don’t get along. If I keep things fake and cheery on the surface of our relationship then we are fine. But if anything, and I really do mean anything, goes deeper than nail polish we start to have problems. And with the other issues with life, we are fine, but only if I keep my mouth shut and just go with what she says or what she’s doing. I love her because she is my mom. But that’s it. I despise her because she is a controlling, manipulative, selfish, emotionally abusive, self-serving, hypocritical, deceitful, paranoid, hateful woman.it actually hurts me living with her and yet I have no choice because of my financial situation. I can’t talk to her like a human being without worrying that my son and I will end up on that streets like the last time (yes, it’s happened before), so I end up holding all of this pent up anger and frustration towards her in which isn’t healthy for me. And it’s obvious to everyone that something is wrong but I’m doing my best not to tell her to stop telling my son something different after I tell him something else. Or to not blame me if I put a bow on the wrong heart she made because I didn’t know which heart she wanted it on and they all look the exact same; I don’t have to help her. And to stop making assumptions that I want to go everywhere she is going. Sometimes I just want to catch up on my tv shows when I actually have free time. Or even catch up on sleep because I don’t always sleep well at night and if I am kid free during the day, I don’t want to do whatever she always has planned. It’s not that I never want to. I just want to be asked, not demanded. I’m so tired of it.

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      Guava replied 8 years, 6 months ago

      Hi, @ladybug48! If you don’t mind me saying, it’s obvious she’s very conscious of her own feelings, but not other people’s. I’m not sure how you’d get around that situation, but just think of what’s best for you and your child. There’s no saying what could happen in the future, but try your absolute best to think of the positives in that situation, or even a friend to let some steam off to. If you need to vent, please don’t hesitate to message me here, I’d be more than available to rent an ear. Even if it’s just for a casual chat, try to remember there’s people out here to help :) I hope things look up for you and your son, and I wish you all the best :) Have a nice day, love, I’m always here if you need someone x

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      Oli replied 8 years, 6 months ago

      Try to talk to your mother about things if you can @ladybug48, be as honest and as open to her, she shouldn’t be horrible towards you, you deserve love and care, I want to see you being supported and valued by those closest to you, your mother should tell you how special you and your child are to her, hope things work out, I’m always here if you ever need to chat or vent, feel free to message me anytime, my inbox is always open, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)